I want to believe in
God
and all that stuff.
I want to be
part of a gathering point,
a cause around which to form hope
and be together.
I want to find
a place to live as other,
and not be alone
as an accident
in the scattered dust of history.
I want to believe for sure,
and to live for that big thing,
bigger than my littleness,
bigger that the dot and spot
that I am.
I want to believe.
So, why can’t I?
2-5-2010