I cannot be an atheist

I could never be an atheist

that’s having too much faith,

for faithless I am indeed,

though I want to believe,

I want to say there’s more

beyond this open door

that lies between heaven’s gate

and me, but I cannot step

through that door for fear

that there is nothing really there.


No, I cannot be an atheist

when there are these maybes

that may be near and

may be far, in this life

or in an existence

that I cannot grasp.


I have no faith for sure,

unlike an atheist.