This habitual pattern,
this firing, is such an
ordered pleasure path that
there is need for a
hard undoing, a relearning,
a stopping and starting,
that must be done, be
repeated to the new path
begins to form, but even
then the new has not lost
the old for there is no
erasure complete just
suppression, diversion, renewal
of the old insistent way that
Ied you here, now, to find
the person that exists inside grief.
23/1/2023