Looking in at experience
caught in mind as phenomena,
moment to moment,
breath to breath:
in the body, states of being.
Feelings reported in the range.
Bodies as sensorial.
Bodies in space and moving.
Locating in space and time.
Temporalities. Orientation. Real, virtual.
Bodies as objects, seen,
felt, desired, positioned.
Living today in our histories,
genealogies, families as place, home
or alienations that move to death.
Living in geographies, in geologies,
in landscapes that contain culture,
language that now is moving,
extinguishing, reforming, reshaping
in the evolution of time across time,
that constrains our existence.
Then touch and interaction.
and putting things together.
Fresh and then obsolete.
Thinking in forms, ideas
and words of today, yesterdays,
futures that are imagined, dreamed,
constructed in the wishes that
may come true, whatever true means.
Connecting it all together to make
beliefs about the whole,
and telling stories with self,
as internal dialogue of self.
Constructing a self for Others
in entanglements of groups and communities.
Speaking, listening, connecting.
Language and the feeling of writing,
of reading the text and the world:
the world as material, the world as
Others, as strangers, aliens, friends,
intimates in this horizon called a life,
told and retold as narrative to convince
the seIves of meaning and Others
that we have meaning, whatever
meaning means, as we consider our biology,
our frailty, anxiety, tension, finality,
sense of being creatures with mortality
among other creatures that find their
place and survive on this fragile blue rock
strung out at the edge of our galaxy among galaxies.
created perhaps by god, perhaps by nature,
perhaps by happenstance, who know?.
This is us as feeling momentary beings,
as lumps of flesh caught in the uncertain
world, in the spheres, in our horizons of
awareness, in the circles of our presence,
in being here as the fact of our existence.