I want to believe in

God

and all that stuff.

I want to be

part of a gathering point,

a cause around which to form hope

and be together.

I want to find

a place to live as other,

and not be alone

as an accident

in the scattered dust of history.

I want to believe for sure,

and to live for that big thing,

bigger than my littleness,

bigger that the dot and spot

that I am.

I want to believe.

So, why can’t I?

 

2-5-2010